So I’m still struggling with my new life alone.
I’m pretty firmly in the grips of depression, but it isn’t beyond what I can handle. I’ve only called in one morning off of work since the initial shock set in. I just couldn’t get up yesterday. Today, it was a little better, but I had a run in a couple of hours ago with Mai that soured my day. I’ve made up my mind not to hate her, but she is making sticking with that decision very hard. I hope some of you reading this can hate her for me.
Also, I wasn’t able to go to Axwell after all. I REALLY REALLY REALLY wanted to, but I have to leave for Tokyo bright and early tomorrow and work until at least 9pm. I’ll be in Tokyo for 8 days, so it would be nice to see as many Tokyo friends as possible. I really need it. This trip has not only caused me to not be able to see Axwell, I also had to give up my Underworld tickets. It has wiped out a lot of things that would get my mind of how miserable I feel, so I hope that I can see some friends and get some good out of it.
I’m a fucking mess. Waking up at 5:30 to catch the Shinkansen is going to be a bitch in this state.
